there are some things which just can't be said here. it's so funny. a blog's supposed to be somewhere where one can express her feelings and thoughts but sometimes it's really not appropriate place to, for some reasons. plus it's also not good to keep everything to yourself too. hai i'm just feeling damn sianned now. things are not happening the way i want them to. or rather, it never did. i think i'm on the verge of giving up soon. someone pull me back please :/